The Gleeful Gourmand: Robinson, Party of 5...Robinson, Party of 5

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Robinson, Party of 5...Robinson, Party of 5

Tonight is our very last night as the Robinson Trio. It's a very difficult concept to wrap my brain around that tomorrow we will jump to being the Robinson Five. When we found out last week that we would be delivering early (I will be 34 weeks by tomorrow), we weren't surprised, but we still weren't ready. Although I was (am) technically still on bedrest, as soon as the boys left to do some grocery shopping, I went into full-scale panic nesting mode, and dusted as though I'd never dusted before. All I could think of were the doubts that had been circling for the past 8 months. What if I can't handle being a mother to three?

I've been a mother to just one for the past 3 1/2 years. While I don't always get it right, I pretty much have it down pat. It's comfortable, most of the time. I have time to read, to do things outside of my child, heck, to make dinner and cookies and pies, and all the things I really enjoy doing. And yet, here come two more children who will be completely dependent on me for a long time. It's a daunting thought, along with all the usual worries of whether they'll be healthy and happy babies. Heaped on top of the nagging thought that my son was such a great baby - textbook, really - that maybe these two will be really, really difficult. Maybe they'll hate sleeping. Maybe they'll hate eating. It's a lot to think about.

I was talking to a friend of mine earlier today who is due in early July with her first child. She told me that she isn't ready at all, and we talked about the doubts that plagued us both. I was reminded that I had these exact same doubts about my first child just before giving birth, except a little different. What if I'm a terrible mother? What if I just plain suck at it? It's comforting to me to know that even with these new doubts, I know myself well enough to know that whatever comes my way, I'll put my head down and power through it. My mother used to say all the time before Liam was born, "If cavewomen could do it, you can do it." And she's exactly right. There are plenty of moms out there who have not only had twins, but had them with children already in the home.

So while I may feel emotionally a little bit like the above picture of Liam (who is suddenly terrified of the first fish he caught), I'm physically ready (especially as the Virginian summer gets going), and I know what I know before I gave birth to Liam: that God is completely in control, and I trust Him completely, no matter what happens. I recently came upon this scripture from my dear friend Kiki over at I Still Hate Pickles, and it's really been something I've been returning to this past week. I know tomorrow I'll have it running through my mind:

"The eternal God is your dwelling place, and underneath are the everlasting arms." Deuteronomy 33:27

We can't wait to meet our sweet little girls!


Angela McCormick said...

Very sweet! No, you won't have time to read or make cookies. At least not for a while. But this, too, shall pass--way faster than you'll want it to. You're a great mom of one, and you'll be an even better mom of three! I'm so happy for you and your growing family! We'll be praying for you and the girls tomorrow. God bless!

Kirsten Oliphant said...

You'll be great! We are praying for you out here and I know there will be a transition time unique to you and your family. Take all the love and support people offer (and meals) and ask for help when you need it! I'm here, even though here is HERE in Houston and not THERE in Richmond.

Alison said...

Believe me.... everyone thinks they're going to suck at being a parent! Jenna, I have complete faith in you and, more importantly, GOD has complete faith in you - why else would you be having twin identical girls? You are going to handle motherhood the same way you handle everything else in your life... by trusting in God, leaning on your friends, and knowing that these children were loaned to YOU for a very special reason. You are the very person who can raise all three of them to their utmost potential, with unending love, unfathomable strength, a bit of sympathy, and lots of courage. Lean on everyone as you need it and we'll always be there for you. You're embarking on a unique journey, my love.... and you're going to have a blast!

Much love to the Robinson party of 5! xoxoxo

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